Sunday 28 February 2010

When will it be summer again??

I've already bought (..and am not intending to buy anymore..) three new pairs of shorts this year..all ready for summer :) ..now I am just waiting for it to get here. I need some warmth for when I wake up in the mornings and have to go to work..! ..and also so I can have my pimms and lemonade with lots of fruit :)

The last day of February 2010

A lot of ppl seem to think this year is a leap year..but it's not. I have a feeling it's in 2012 but I still havn't got to the point of actually getting confirmation on that. Maybe I should check that out after this. Well February has been an interesting month. Met up with a lot of ppl I havnt seen in ages for dinners or days out. It was good fun. Time goes so quickly that you've just got to arrange things as soon as possible or the months will just fly by. 2009 went so unbelievably fast for me. Alot of things changed. I got myself back for one after having lost myself for over three and a half years and now have a boyfriend who makes me feel very happy..and for the first time..secure. The arrival of this certain someone coming back into my life after so many years AND our four hour convo in the very early hrs of the morning after a night out..gave me the confidence to break out from the situ I was in and set about finding myself again. I'd lost all my confidence and the person I truely was. The person who if I wanted something..would go out and get it. The person who did want to get somewhere in life and who knew what type of career she wanted. So this person's arrival back into my life proved to be quite life changing to the point where..I'm back! ..and I have all my friends back too. I guess I'd kinda drifted away from everyone. They were still always my friends..but contact was reduced to minimal. It happens a lot to ppl in those situ's and I've had so many conversations about it..and for the first time it seems the ppl around me have all come to this conclusion too and are all..if in relationships now..like me..working against letting that happen again. A balance needs to be found. Relationship. Friends. A mix of the two. Independence. I think I can safely say I have that now. My only task left is to sort out my working life. It's scary to break out from a job which you're good at and that I can say is secure..but I never planned to do this..and well I got side-tracked..and now is the time to get myself back on track. It's daunting..but NOW IS the time to start sorting this out. What is the point in waiting?


EDIT: I have the confirmation..2012 is the next leap year :) 

Saturday 27 February 2010

This saturday is wild..

So I'm currently sitting on my bed in silence doing nothing..AND it's a Saturday night.. What the hell has happened?! This is not normal for me.. But I have had this feeling that I should just stay in this week. My theory on this..if I had gone out..something bad would've happened. Yes. That is it. Ahh but what do I do instead..sleep?? I'm BORED. Why is it that when you have loads to do you don't have time?..and then when you have absolutely nothing to do and plenty of time..you have nothing to do. OR..is it just because you got everything done you can finally relax. Is this what we rush around for?? To become bored once we've done everything? No. I think there is a flaw in my thinking there. Does boredom come from lazyness? Does it come from a lack of creativity..? I sure hope not. I'm supposed to be a creative person. My back up excuse for that tho..luckily..I am writing. I'm bored but I got down to doing some writing. Creative?? Does that count? Not sure what the answer is..it could be negative..so right now..ignorance is bliss and I shall go get myself some dinner.

Tuesday 23 February 2010

So..a little about me..just to start things off..

My name's Sam..I come from London..I've lived here all my life. I'm fairly easy going but can be quite shy at first..but then who isn't? I wish I had a bit more confidence tho.. My friends are important to me..they've made me who I am..plus I've learnt a lot from life so far..experiences..mistakes..but you take what you can from each thing and you find the positives..I very much believe in things happening for a reason..you just don't always realise this at the time. Everything makes you stronger as a person and so that can only do you good. I try to stay positive..but sometimes it's hard..I'm only human after all. I'm easily amused..finding the little things in everything makes me happy..it's quite simple really. I guess you'll find out more about me as this blog grows..so for now I guess this is the end of entry number one..